Wednesday, December 5, 2012

My first bike crash

I almost died on November 22nd this year.
My first bike crash! 

I was on the way back home, in a hurry only to get to the toaster and juicer. The traffic was as usual, bright loud and fascinating. I was fully concentrating on my driving. Only often was I distracted by simple thoughts, like "Oh imagine all the calculation the drivers put forth while driving, Oh the wiring of veins from the hands to brain, "the lanes, the infrastructure and poverty of the city", "the couple on that bike, the kid in that car". Full-on concentration, till I tried to over-take a rickshaw.

It was an easy bet. Or so I thought. I could swear there was plenty space to zoom forward and lane up before a car long away would come nearby.
Oh boy was I wrong! The car from the opposite lane, my bike and the rickshaw all sped at the same speed, simultaneously, like an impossible racing dream. My beautiful bad timing blanked me out when I was right on the divider line. 

Joey, the bike, hit both the car as well as the rick. No, I made Joey hit both the car and the rick. The car's mirror breaks away in slow motion and lands on the footpath - an onlooker says. I am thrown away from my seat, onto the 9 o clock road of ISRO Layout. I was spinning and rolling in glamorous rage on the cold, black tar while jaws dropped and silent frowns escaped faces. 

I open my eyes, ignoring of the pain my elbow and knees are craving attention for. I stand up and see that Joey is still accelerating hard, vroom-vrooming in some sort of weird excitement. People swam around me like Jessica Alba was teleported from LA to where I stood. Brushing away like a macho, I replied to all the "Are you ok? Get her to a hospital" with an "I'm fine I'm fine". 

I was so concerned and heartbroken for Joey. I felt like I betrayed his accelerator, ignored his instinct, two-timed with his brakes and cut open his wheels. I felt like a female canine. 
My cloud of emotion was slapped away by the furious rickshaw driver who stormed at me for the damage. The car driver came over and demanded my number to settle the damage compensation later. He bends down to note down Joey's registration number and comes back up with a smile. "Oh you are a Keralite? Me too. You little girl, poor thing, are you hurt? Please ride careful now on" and his gorgeous wife comes out of the car and repeats after him. The man was around 50 and I thanked god I didn't run into my dad's car. I decided I won't even tell him about this right then! He'd be hurt, helpless and furious. All at once. Phew!

As soon as I was about to get back to my emotional cloud with Joey, the day's villain sprouts up again! The rickshaw driver hands over a piece of my bike that broke away and fell into his vehicle! I wanted to go die. I had hurt Joey so much? Oh god.

I turned away and looked at the crowd. Did I see concern? Hardly. Did I see curiosity? Yes. Did I see sympathy? A little. Did I see anger? A little. Did I see jealousy over the modified look of Joey? Yeahbsolutely! 

The rickshaw man wanted me to take his vehicle to the garage and fix it. Come on, it had a scratch where the paint had chipped a little and there was a small dent on the body. Big deal.
I couldn't tag behind this, so I offered a 300 Indian rupee compensation to which he happily agreed.

I bid adieu the hefty man who helped me get up, a schoolgirl waiting to see me cry and the local men who translated my broken kannada to the rickshaw driver. I rode away, guilty.
As I crossed one street light after the other, the cold breeze rubbed the gashes the crash gave me. I hardly knew where all I was hurt, in all the mess. But now after  the tenth street lamp I passed by, guilt was no longer guilt. It had blossomed into something I never thought I will walk away from this incident with. This accident with? 
Yes and it was pride. 
I had just had my first bike crash! - the turning point in every rider's life. The first kiss with the road. The first encounter with fear. The first courage evoking adventure. 
And I was riding away from it with bleeding wounds, which were the signs of glory already.

There was a subconscious me whispering You are crazy paro, but I didn't have time for the regular world me. I was back home, parked the bike, kissed it an apology and walked to the doctor, beautifully bruised all over.
I got my wounds? No, gashes? Alright honestly they were just cuts - I got my cuts dressed. The sting urged me to scream my lungs out, but the sweet spoken doctor's smile didn't allow me the immaturity.  I bought the prescribed medicines after much second thought. I mean, who has medicines after a crash? Such an awesome crash.

I got a smoked dark chocolate on the way back home.



Butterfly Holidays

"Butterfly Holidays" is an IATO recognized, Govt. of India Ministry of Tourism approved Tour Company.

Ms. Anita Sekhar started it up in 1993 and as the Director, included Mr. P V Natarajan as the Working Partner in 1998.

Operations have been in swing ever since, till she handed it over to Ms. Parvathi Natarajan on 24th October 2012.

The company has been handling inbound tours to India till now, but as I take over, Butterfly Holidays will do outbound as well, focusing the US, Australia and Malaysia.

                                                                  ~Wings for your dreams~

Shwe's Birthday

I met this girl 3 months back in the lobby of the NDTV IndiaCan campus and said hey. We seemed poles apart, talked a little and then I disappeared to Kerala with Chickenpox. 

I came back after 2 weeks and then we bonded like crazy. God knows how or why. Today is her birthday and I made sure I wished her first at midnight, keeping her on call since 20 minutes prior! And then I sang to her the birthday song, regretted my absence, the fresh bumps and the cake! 

I love this girl so much today, that I feel like it's my own birthday. We are so much a part of each others' lives and yet don't tag ourselves best friends or soul sisters. 

The century's too cliche for us ;) 

Happy Birthday Shwe!!


(Written and published online, on 24th October 2012) 
 -Parvathi Natarajan

Tuesday, December 4, 2012

In memory of Arun's Grandpa

He was MY GRANDPA.

The only man I have ever given a bouquet of flowers. Yellow roses.
The only man I have fallen in love with just for his charm.
The most handsome 80 year old who can make you laugh, think and respect; all at once.
I don't even know why such a terrible day I am acknowledging on this stupid site, but I don't know what else to do.
Achoo is on the way home. I couldn't go along for obvious reasons.
I am back here alone and devastated. I can feel my temporal veins yearning to explode.
And then again, he is in the astral plane now. I can talk to him anytime I want and fall in love again.

But who is going to convince his most loved grandson this? Achoo, my heartfelt, soul bleeding condolences.

One last bouquet of yellow roses for Apoopan.
This time, not to say Get Well Soon.
But to say You Will Live Through Us.
Forever.

We love you. It is a privilege we shared the century with you.

Saturday, October 13, 2012

Ignore


Let the sun shine through
Let the breeze whine loud.
Let the house mourn empty
And let minds stay on shroud.

Let food trek to dumps
Let hungry stomachs cry.
Let the rich and spoilt thrive
And let agony spread out dry.

Let happiness be a thing of the past
Let contempt lead the day.
Let darkness conquer hearts
And let ego replace what’s gay.

No one cares about love for you or me
And no one out there even knows.
That ignorance poisons earth altogether
And that’s where all lives crudely pause.


No.


I love you? You? 

Love forgives injustice.
It accepts deteste and malice.
I can’t get down to being so nice
To someone for who I am just a dice.
Rather just tear out the disguise
And tell him I need better to suffice.
I don't want to live any more lies.
Or spend on him for coke and fries.
When he ain't worth the sacrifice
Why stick on to live like rotting mice.
Sometimes I hate you more than fire does ice.
Yet I hide the tears that escape the eyes.
Because deep inside I love you like birds do the skies.
And that will always remain. Be mine. Don’t put me a price. 




One for you!


A 5th grader’s rhyme.
The 5th grader me.

She is my ray of sunshine
With her nearby, I’m always fine.
Her grace is one of a lit lamp
So warm, it makes my heart damp.
She walks and talks in such elegance
Her smile is rose flower fragrance.
She taught me truth, love, compassion.
She is my life’s celebration
You know who she is? Oh don't guess, don't bother

She is my mother.